Monthly Archives: April 2015

What I learnt this week: 100 days!

Warning- this post was written in October 2014 but its sentiments remain valid…

This week I celebrated 100 days of staying sober.  Yes I did it!  No drinking for over three months in Europe!  I can’t believe it either.  I thought I would share what I learnt through staying strong for 100 days:

  1. You don’t ever need a drink no matter what you believe.  EVER!
  2. Drinking does give you confidence but so does acting confidently- fake it until you make it
  3. It’s better to face your negative emotions than to try and cover them up with alcohol.  It makes you stronger if you deal with things head on
  4. It doesn’t have to be all or nothing in life.  Moderation is good
  5. Don’t let other people influence what you want to do.   If you don’t want a drink then- DON’T.  Who gives an f*&^k what others think.  What you do is up to you!
  6. Not drinking definitely clears your mind and helps you feel so good health wise.  It’s weird but I feel lighter…
  7. You can have a ball without alcohol!  It can be done!
  8. You can change your life- if you choose to.  But you must take action.  There’s no good in saying- ‘I’ll do it tomorrow’
  9. I have reconsidered whether the buzz I get from alcohol is really worth the negative emotions that follow the day after
  10. No matter how hard the task at hand seems you can do it!!!

The most amazing thing was I realised how many people had actually been following my journey.  So many people congratulated me (on Facebook), even people I hadn’t spoken to since high school (which seems like a while ago now, haha)!  It made me feel so proud that I didn’t give up.  You never know who you’re inspiring just by staying true to something you believe in!

That was the big news of the week.  Which I think is pretty darn impressive.  But what else did I do?  Apart from the usual writing and working malarky:

Saw a play at Southbank called ‘Ballyturk’- which starred Cillian Murphy.  It was so crazy but brilliant at the same time.  Cillian is incredible (and gorgeous).  I had to control myself from running on stage and ripping his clothes off!!!

Enjoyed a Thai dinner and movie date with Jess on Thursday.  We saw the much anticipated ‘Gone girl,’ with my dream husband- Ben Affleck.  Sigh.  No I don’t just lust after attractive men all day, (only 87% of the day), geez I have to do a bit of work!

Dinner with Roison on Friday night.  We ate amazing Spanish tapas and drank sangria.  Yes I drank, but in moderation.  I control my drinking, it no longer controls me!  Then it was off to Michelle’s birthday drinks- fun times in Clapham.

Michelle

 

 

What I learnt this week: Stop, look and listen

Because this blog is behind I’ve been able to read the notes I wrote and reflect six months down the track.  Which is strange because I feel bad about letting it get so out of shape but it’s interesting to look over what I was feeling at the time.

It appears I was freaking out, just ever so slightly (me, freaking out? I know I’m usually so cool, calm and collected- haha)!  Anyway, the thoughts and scrawls I’d written jump crazily from one to the next.

Interestingly this week was the first of my second year in the UK.  I was clearly unhappy in London but I didn’t think heading back to Australia was the answer.  I didn’t really know what the answer was.  I just couldn’t stay.

I made the decision to leave London.  It was quick but it had to be done- it’s best to rip band aids off asap!  I talked to Mike (who is probably the best manager ever- no he doesn’t read my blog, so I’m not technically sucking up) and he sorted a transfer to the Manchester office for me.  I then made a plan to move to Leeds and live with Martine and Gareth.

Everything just fell into place.  I could suddenly breathe again, relieved at the thought of ‘getting out.’  P.S I love London, it’s an incredible city but it’s so frantic ALL OF THE TIME!!!

The lesson that came from this week was that if you can take a step back from whatever situation you’re in and get some perspective it’s a wonderful thing!   Learn to stop (before you blow a fuse), look (at yourself and what you want) and listen (to the answer comes to you).  Yes, this saying does come from an ad that teaches kids how to cross a road.  Simple but effective  😉

Apart from that big decision- it was a massively busy week!

I was in Manchester for work on Monday.  Got the train back to London with Andrea and Paul.  It was nice to chat to them outside of the office.  I enjoy getting to know people, beyond just an every day work capacity.

Had dinner with Clara on Wednesday night.  We hadn’t seen each other for ages so we ended up sitting in the restaurant for four hours without even realising how long we’d been there!

There was a work event on the Friday.  Had chats with Steph and Anna whilst eating my way through everything in sight, as I substituting food for alcohol still.

The weekend was amazing!  I went to Canterbury for Clare’s hen’s weekend.  We got spa treatments at this beautiful old hotel.  And ate high tea and swam.  Went out that night- dinner and a pub-crawl.  I didn’t drink one drop of alcohol and it felt so good.  Maybe I never need to drink again!

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The next day we had a nice breaky.  Then the girls headed off.  I stayed to check out Canterbury.  Wandered around the cobble stone streets, then sat in the park and wrote in the sun.  I didn’t want to go back to London.  I knew for sure it was time to go…