What I learnt this week: FEARLESS

It was an eye opening week to say the least!  (Well 2 weeks ago it was, just a tad behind on bloggy)

I’ll begin with the social side of things.  Dinner with Kelly at ‘Yalla Yalla’ in Shoreditch on Monday.  Yummy Turkish food.  It’s been a while since we’ve hung out, so there was loads of catching up to do.

Then on Friday night we met for final drinks at Somerset House.  It was the last time I will see Kel before she sets off back to Aus…

Somerset house

Headed to the infamous ‘Walkabout Bar’ with Jess and a bunch of girls for the State of Origin on Wednesday night.  We had our own booth booked above the general riff raft 😉 Fun times.  Also caught the end of the Aussies playing in the World Cup.   So much sport, I don’t know how guys do it!

The big news was I quit my role at Prospero.  I’m moving on from my first job in London.  It has been a crazy ride.  I’m definitely not the same girl that started back in Oct 2013.  I’ve learnt resilience, confidence and how to stand up for myself.  I’ve grown, developed a team and I’m proud of my efforts.  But it’s time to start a new chapter.

It was harder than I thought to make this decision.  Even though I was excited by the new job I was scared to leave.  I hate the unknown.  I like routine, a little too much it seems.  But once I made the decision to leap, I was happy.

This leads in to the theme for the week.  I went to a workshop focusing on character mapping with Laurie Hurtzler on Saturday.  It was all about how fear drives a character and makes them act.  It was fascinating, especially when you realise how it applies to your own life!

I had a couple of teary moments when I saw how I’ve let my own fears hold me back in life.

One such moment was this week when I almost didn’t take the new job.  I guess I was scared of what would happen.  Scared that I wouldn’t be good enough.  Scared that I wouldn’t like it.  Scared of the absolute uncertainty.  But nothing in life is certain.  Nothing. And to make a decision based on fear is the a bad decision.

So I’m proud I faced my fear.  I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone and boy do I feel good.  I walked through Somerset House on the way home on Friday night with the most amazing feeling of freedom.  I’m on a new adventure.  I don’t know where it leads but I’m excited to find out.

Funniest moment:

  • Headed to ‘The Chatty’ for a Sunday session and the moment was when I described to Rochelle that I wasn’t drunk after 6 double shots of gin.  I told her I didn’t feel anything just that my mouth was moving at a different pace to my brain.  Yeah that’s not a sign of being drunk at all…

What I did that scared me:

  • Quit my job!

Highs:

  • Facing my fear and finding freedom in the unknown
  • Buying Kelis’ new album
  • Lunch with my team on Friday- burgers yea!

Lows:

  • Saying goodbye to Kel 🙁
  • Stress at work
  • Still feeling sick

What I learnt:

  • Your fear can only control you if you let it.  If you take a leap of faith, you can open a new door.  It might lead to uncertainty but that’s the beauty of it.

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