What I learnt this week: Connection Failure

March already?  Seriously where does the time tick to?

Work busy (as usual) but I feel that I’m slowly getting somewhere with the new team.  Organisation won’t happen over night but it will happen.  I know what I’m capable of.   We also had a new starter Siobhan Cha Cha- yes, best name ever I know.  She is one of those people you can’t not like.

A few cool events this week: caught ‘Young Rebel Set,’ at the Lexington in Angel.  Which included drinks with Kelly.  Drinks that caught up with me on  Wednesday.  I still managed a double gym session with Shelley that night.  Boxing followed by shaking my white girl booty in a dance class!

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Lunch with Indu from work on Thursday, we chatted over a delicious curry.  Took a walk around the park, talked all things writing 🙂

Friday was pay day, so obviously that was a big night out!  The usual ‘2 for 1 ‘ cocktails at ‘Be at One.’  I did have quite a few concoctions, enjoyed the night but was home by 11pm.  Well before my coach had time to turn in to a pumpkin.

Friday night

This was due to the fact I had put my name down to work at the TNT travel show on Saturday.  That was a long one.  So many drunk Aussie’s and Kiwi’s in the same place.  On mass we’re a little much to be honest…

What did I learn: NOTHING.  Well not nothing.  You can always learn something even if you think you aren’t learning anything.  However this week there didn’t really seem to be a theme.  At least nothing obvious that I wanted to chat about.  I walked, this usually helps inspiration, I read, I listened to music, I researched,I ran, I waited. NOTHING.

For the first time in my life I have writer’s block.  I thought that was just an excuse for laziness.  I was wrong.  In realising this though it has made me examine why I’m currently uninspired.

And I do believe I’m bored.  Not in the sense that I don’t enjoy my  life and that I don’t have plenty to do.  But I just have this horrible feeling of apathy right now.

I’m not even really sure why.  I thought writing about it might give me a clue.  Alas it sounds even more stupid now I have written about it.  I guess it’s better out than in.

Maybe my computer was telling me something- you know when you get the ‘connection failure’ message.  That’s true of me right now.  Sometimes I do believe  all the things that help us connect e.g. Facebook, email, snap chat really don’t help us at all.  Yes, we have gained amazing technology but we have also lost the art of conversation?

Are we living through social media?  Sharing our world-the best, the worst bits and some people f$&king everything.  Are we living in reality or just in cyberspace?

I’m not sure what has created my disconnection, I don’t believe it’s social media (that was a little detour my blog took)  but I can tell you that this post has led me to think I need to do something drastic to snap myself out of this rut.  Not sure what it will be…the last time I realised I was in a rut I moved to London…

What I did that scared me:

  • I will reveal this next week if it pays off!

Funniest moment:

  • Watching my dance instructors face and how excited he got during the class.  Priceless.

Highs:

  • Catching up with Grahem, our tour guide from Scotland at the TNT travel show
  • Texted Navy boy from Scotland, interesting…
  • ‘Young Rebel Set’ from Scotland (hmmm, a very Scottish week, I like it)

Lows:

  • Food poisoning on Thursday
  • Dehydration
  • 6 day working week

What I learnt:

  • If you realise you’re in a rut.  Do something about it, or risk being swallowed by it…

 

 

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